Sorry I accidentally deleted your question but i do have a Facebook my name is Tyler Marshall so you can look me up. I just made it a couple months ago so their isn't a lot on it but it's always nice to have more friends on there
Okay I just did, did you go to the house party? Like the show at the Portuguese hall?
"I’ve never had a problem with drugs. I’ve had problems with the police."
Our current enigmatic relationship
My favorite poet once wrote that loving someone who doesn’t give a damn about you isn’t sexy; it’s misplaced energy.
You are a complete manifestation of my misplaced energy. The love I pour into your soul leaves mine feeling empty. You control the power switch to the unreciprocated energy that runs through my body; It is caught in a closed circuit and you are the release valve that won’t open.
I know you see how I tear at my skin trying to release that energy from my veins, put it to something more useful than trying to make you feel something more for me. You are deep rooted like the redwoods to the Earth. There is no way I can seem to cut you out of me.
Our souls seem to work like magnets, trying to stay stuck together when what I know i need is solitude. You are therapeutic to my will to stay the same, but to be able to move on you must leave something behind to keep things in balance. And I cannot move forward when you want me to stay here, only as your friend. I cannot only love you as a friend. And it is damaging to know that it’s her you fall asleep next to. It’s even harder knowing tht I cannot push anger towards you, for you have done nothing wrong.
Unrequited love is not a choice, for either party. But that doesn’t make it any less excruciating when your alone in bed knowing that’s what you truly are.
For now I don’t have the strength or will power to pull myself out of you. But you are a distraction, and a false hope. One that I cannot afford to put much more energy into. Soon I will have to let this relationship fade out into the abyss. Ill have to let you be so that I can be.